to the world you may only be one person....

...but to one person you may be the world.  that quote in all reality, really is one of the best pieces of advice you can ever take to heart.  for many years (actually as long as i can remember) whenever i would wish for anything, i would want happiness.  Not just a day or two of joy, but true happiness and ease and peace in life.  I'm not really sure when it happened or how it came about, but after one of the darkest times in my life, I woke up and just felt it one day.  Happiness.

I'm not always in a great mood, some days I'm cranky and still get down, but essentially, it's meaningless stuff anymore and it passes pretty quickly.  I'm always left with a feeling of completeness.  Some days there are things I would ultimately want to change or fix, but I know that even if I don't get around to it, I'm still okay and I'll be good no matter what.

So now what do I ask for?  Now what do I want?  Once I found this ever ellusive happiness, I began wishing I could make a difference just in one person's life.  However, I'm pretty sure I have already accomplished this goal, so now I will set out to make a difference in a hundred people's lives.  Anyways, thats not my point.  My point is, I realized one day that my name may not strike a chord with a thousand people, but it strikes a chord to at LEAST one person's life somewhere at any given time.  And not a chord where they think "I'd like to off that broad"...more like "she's an amazing person". So, I mean something to someone, somewhere and thats all that in turn matters to me.  The people I choose to associate myself with on a regular basis at this point in my life are equally awesome people, so making a difference in a fellow awesome person's life makes my achievement of my goal even more impressive.  haha.

Okay, okay, i ramble a lot.  Thats what happens.  I get it from my father.  Point of all of this is: we all get down, we all have off days.  Sometimes now for a split second I think "doesn't anyone care?"  But you need to shake it off, because the reality is you DO matter to at least one person out there, perhaps even someone you least expect to matter to.  So, your name may not be as widely used as say, paris hilton, but really who wants those sorts of things associated with the announcing of their name?  Not me.  So just remember, that you do indeed matter to someone out there somewhere.  I can guarantee you this, so always believe it and use it to put a skip in your step.

The world needs some more positivity and selfless actions, so take this to make you feel better and encourage you to continue in life.  You can thank me for it later.  :)  But changing your attitude towards yourself, your worth, and life, can essentially start a ripple effect of awesomeness in your own life and every life that in turn touches yours.

Now I'm going to take a nap.  You need a good rest to make a change in life too, kids.  Remember that.

good day.

something you may see a lot of from me....

a post about animals.  I had a long winded post typed up, but ultimately I decided against posting it for various reasons.  Instead I will leave you with this....

I know many of you who know me or may follow my blog have animals, dogs in particular.  Please, dont ever take them for granted.  I know how frustrating or aggravating our animals can be at times.  TRUST ME.  i know.  They are at times, very much like children.  Ocassionally they scream, destroy things, or really push you to your limits, but the good times, those really good times, make it so much worth the journey.

Actually, I guess we can apply that to life and relationships in general.  Always be conscious that you get back what you put in to anything.  Animals, children, lovers, friends, family.  And if for some reason, you are putting in much more than you are getting, it's time to cut your losses.  You're better than that and worthy of something greater.

Which brings me back to animals again, and why they are ultimately better than humans.  Really, you could just thow them a piece of food every once in a while and pat them on the head once a day and they would go to the ends of the earth for you.  So make it your choice to choose to give them a better life.  To go forth and give them the ultimate benefits and the best things.  Because what they give you, and how they view you, could never compare to the meager amount that they ask of us in return.

I guess after rambling and jumping around from point A to point B and then back again, my point is be the person your dog thinks you are, and in general, be the person you would want to have in YOUR life.  be the best and do not sell yourself short, and give uncondtionally to those deserving of it.

Life's too short to feel like you've let someone down, or even worse, like you've let your dog down. :)

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Choose Life

No, I'm not talking about abortions....

The easiest thing to do in life is to give up;  to give in to the darkness.  We all have it, and no matter how hard or how easy our life is, we all feel it.

If you really want to do something, do the not so easy thing and fight.  Choose life.  Choose to feel every last minute of it with your entire being.

THAT is what seperates the weak from the strong.   Choosing life and not giving in to all of the negative things that tempt us so easily with self pity, etc.

I'm going to bed.  But write that shit down and remember it until I decide to ramble on here again.

<3  Good night.

i forgot how much i hate HTML

its seriously awful.

and theres apparently another nikki stixx.  so i had to add the 28.
blasphemy!